Selena Gomez is revealing more about her struggles with bipolar disorder.
The singer disclosed that she had suicidal thoughts and checked into 4 different treatment centers.
She said in a Rolling Stone interview: “I think when I started hitting my early twenties is when it started to get really dark, when I started to feel like I was not in control of what I was feeling, whether that was really great or really bad.”
Selena also recounts having extreme highs and lows for weeks or months, before understanding her bipolar diagnosis.
She explained that at times she would have symptoms of mania, like feeling the need to buy everyone in her life a car so she could share her “gift”, but then she’d fall into a deep state of depression and not be able to get out of bed.
And in her darkest moments, she said, “I thought the world would be better if I wasn’t there.”
After a 2018 episode, she says she ended up on a ton of meds, which helped her psychosis, but made her feel unlike herself.